30th August 2013
Points in the compass and moments of time
Things happening in the drift of life
Driving for days across the desert
From one side of the country to the other
East to West
Then back again
West to East
Heading North on questions of restraint
Captivity of children and parents of people
Being Born and Dying
Sufferance of deceptions through love
Women who love too much
Once I went to a party and I had a good time
That time was fine
Then I grew up
Into a dream that was good
A dream that went somewhere else
I am always grateful for my experiences in life
I am grateful for the people I have known and for my family
There is no regret even in great sadness or loss
There is only that experience and the fact that it happened
The world does not run well on feelings.
And we are living in a world gone mad.
Where justice is there for the villains
And the heroes soon turn
Those knights on white horses that were only dreams
Then you wake up and they are gone.
Once men were men and it was okay for them to be men
Once women were women and it was okay for them to be women.
Babies used to come from a woman and a man
In love and lust
The world on steroids is only a world for those who take them
Encrusted Earth, in a miscellaneous universe.
With no room for regrets and test tubes for babies to get women pregnant at 50.
So soon a baby will come from even more sterile places and women will no longer be vessels.
They will just go to work and support the economy.
This is technology and this is equality and this is what people want
To have homes and televisions and computers.
You can’t drift in life you have to be compelled and driven.
Planes move faster than cars
While oceans fill up with plastic
The trees grow and are removed
Forests get felled and cities become decrepit some fall into the sea like Atlantis
The people breathe and they cross lifespans
They pray to their Gods to fulfil all their needs,
Some prayers get answered while others don’t.
In hindsight all we see in anything is movement
Points in the compass and moments in time.
Tuesday 27th August 2013
Sometimes things happen that send shockwaves through our neuro endocrine system and lay in our central nervous systems forever.
It is an interesting fact that we can be exposed to things at a young age and throughout our lives that other people will hold our experiences against us.
The internet however opens up a whole other sphere for a person to remain vulnerable.
How do we protect ourselves from this, really, and can we?
Is it time for me to get back to my affirmations?
I am safe,
I am well,
I am safe.
How about you?
Are you safe?
Well at some point after the stress reactions and fear escalation you come back to Earth, with the same answer.
That answer is you never really know.
You never really know what another person is thinking or what they will do.
All you can do is trust.
Trust in the universe that you are safe and protected and all is well.
I was told that life is not all about how you feel and that it is about how you act.
I guess that meant when you feel something that is not good and is not going to make others feel good, that you mustn’t tell.
Oh dear, you mustn’t tell.
Look where that little sentence got me.
I told, and I am still being told to shut up and put up.
There is only one problem.
My reaction is one called “post trauma” and that is what people don’t like or understand.
I know there are so many with compassion and love in their hearts in the world.
I am grateful for these people.
Even though I understand I have lost my connection at times of stress, I still understand “care”.
I still have a great comprehension of the word “protection”.
I am so sorry.
So the internet, my all that is left, my voice, my expression, my therapy until there is no more coal or money left.
My reunion with youth and wellness, sadness and gladness, whoops I am feeling again.
I guess you have to speak out in order to protect.
Then you have to be able to get that message across to the people who are ready and willing to act in their public service.
That friend’s is the difficult part.
How do you bring morality and discipline, to a very broken situation?
How do you go about finding justice and changing situations that nobody wants to talk about?
Well I have a small part of the answer, just a small part.
Monday 26th August 2013
Here I am, a new day.
Making decisions is sometimes a very hard task for people. Decisions can be life changing and the older you get the scarier that thought is.
Today I made the decision to start a new blog.
Well why not I thought, all that training last year in Information Technology going to waste.
Not that I really learnt that much in IT.
It seems the thing about IT is that it is IT and you get on line and teach yourself.
Now that is an interesting thing, it is kind of like once you enter tertiary education, you have to take responsibility for your own learning.
It is funny that we pay for education but we have to teach ourselves.
Are teachers then getting paid just to give you a mark based on their opinion?
It leaves then many people behind because in the real world not everyone learns the same or understands the same.
In the internet world or the ether realms what does this mean?
For some people learning is a cognitive reaction, some days are better than others, but life is really like that for everyone, who hasn’t had “an unproductive day” in their life?
So, back to the ether world, sorry the internet world.
It is pretty easy to spend your time Googling around only to find yourself lost in loads of information that is either not relevant or that you don’t comprehend.
At times I find some interesting piece of information only to realise hours later that I have not done a thing I should have been studying. It is almost funny except it is a waste of time and has not gotten me anywhere near my goal or outcome.
Sometimes, I know exactly that I should be spending my time learning to code or enter into some backdoor using some system but I am far too busy imagining how my page should look or how to compose what I want to say in an interesting fashion.
Who needs code when you have CMS’s anyway?
I hear the tech heads laughing and calling me names now.
I think I may be only halfway to being a Nerd because I am really not that trendy.
Yes, Nerdy is the new trend for today, I mean who can live without it, tech is the new fashion trend for existence. Who can live without it?
It is just how it is.
Well I have been suffering from a very deep depression, called a million 1800 numbers but it seems all they can say is “what do you want us to do”?
I want to start revolutions, I want to express my ideas and have them heard, I want change.
I want a New World Age where everyone is able and capable and can “have”.
I want to just say:
There Is Enough for Everyone Including Me
I am feeling this now, I am living this now.
I am teaching myself.
The more I teach myself the more I am able to grasp concepts that the universe presents me with.
I never got very far in my Diploma for IT but I learnt so much in many other ways this year.
Today I will recognise that and the year is far from over.
Thank you Life for your lessons.
Thank you Mother Earth for your beauty.
Thank you for all my teachers teaching me to teach myself.
It truely is a wonderful world that we have to learn from.
I have been away from my website for a long time.
I paid my teacher for one on a server and it never got paid and it’s gone dead.
I teach myself.
What even is my website and will it let me in?
I am getting closer to free.
Now I just need to find a nice picture.
Now I just need to be hooked up to the net.
Ok I am remembering how to do this thing and I will see you soon…..
I am back and…
WOW WORDPRESS HAS CHANGED!!!
Now that is making ittoolsfornewmedia.
That is a reflection on new media.